Just another mediocre day but i just feel weird inside.
KIM & RYAN WILL BE AWAY IN CHIANG MAI SAVING ELEPHANTS ON MY BIRTHDAY. MY 21ST BIRTHDAY. i'm gonna cry..... & i can't really imagine spending 21days in SG w/o their company. 21 days w/o drinking & supper? IN THE SUMMER HOLS? oh lord, save me. pls pls pls tell me (the rest of you) that you'd be here with me!
TODAY. I HAD ONE OF THE MOST EMBARRASSING DAYS OF MY LIFE. i swear. i saw ****** in Kopitiam only when i was leaving with Krisa & Dexter, more like i realised he could have been watching me from where he was sitting HAHAHA, AND I TRIED TO SMILE AT HIM cos we had this 3seconds eye contact ystd (i don't think it's THAT easily forgotten). AND GUESS WHAT. I KNOCKED INTO A CHAIR WHILE SMILING AT HIM.
I swear i wish some earthquake would occur right at that moment (no, i'm lying. i just wished i had just looked past him!!!!! but that'd be so uncool & he'd probably think i'm some snob!) AND NOW IM JUST A FOOL. i just hope he wasn't looking at me (& then that's another thing to be sad about) DAMN! the whole crush thing is so irritating.
So what's next. spending a wednesday at home, watching juno. not wanting to get any work done... idling.... where's the old me where i'd be partying now? i dunno which's considered more of wasting time. URGHH. fickle & confused. at least i'm still the same.
KIM & RYAN WILL BE AWAY IN CHIANG MAI SAVING ELEPHANTS ON MY BIRTHDAY. MY 21ST BIRTHDAY. i'm gonna cry..... & i can't really imagine spending 21days in SG w/o their company. 21 days w/o drinking & supper? IN THE SUMMER HOLS? oh lord, save me. pls pls pls tell me (the rest of you) that you'd be here with me!
TODAY. I HAD ONE OF THE MOST EMBARRASSING DAYS OF MY LIFE. i swear. i saw ****** in Kopitiam only when i was leaving with Krisa & Dexter, more like i realised he could have been watching me from where he was sitting HAHAHA, AND I TRIED TO SMILE AT HIM cos we had this 3seconds eye contact ystd (i don't think it's THAT easily forgotten). AND GUESS WHAT. I KNOCKED INTO A CHAIR WHILE SMILING AT HIM.
I swear i wish some earthquake would occur right at that moment (no, i'm lying. i just wished i had just looked past him!!!!! but that'd be so uncool & he'd probably think i'm some snob!) AND NOW IM JUST A FOOL. i just hope he wasn't looking at me (& then that's another thing to be sad about) DAMN! the whole crush thing is so irritating.
So what's next. spending a wednesday at home, watching juno. not wanting to get any work done... idling.... where's the old me where i'd be partying now? i dunno which's considered more of wasting time. URGHH. fickle & confused. at least i'm still the same.
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